Thursday, September 27, 2007

Wow, Here I Am

Okay. Never done this before. Done lots of things. But, never this.
Here I go with a blog.
I've known many bloggers. I've been married to a blogger. I have blogger friends.

First, if any one wonders about my blog title, here is a little story.

See, I had this little bout with a low-grade brain cancer. I now go for periodic follow MRIs. At my last MRI, the neurooncologist came into the room with the results. He pulled up the images on the computer. He showed how things were stable. He clicked off the computer screen. He turned his chair towards me. He looked me in the eyes. He said, "Do, you, know, how lucky you are?"

I didn't answer. But, I'm sure I had tears in my eyes. I answered to myself. "Yes, I completely know, with everything in me, how lucky I am."

That comment seemed to be about much more than those results on the now-dark computer screen. That comment seemed to encompass my entire experience. Actually, it's no exaggeration that it seemed to condense my life to that point in those 7 words.

So, my hope now, is to put out some words about daily life, walking around with the thought often in the back of my head: "Yes. I DO know. How lucky I am!"

Life is still sticky and jumbled and amazing. And, my days have their laughs and tears and boredom.

But, somehow, after these 7 words, and after the experience that prompted these words, all of these plain, normal days just look a little different.

Here I go, and I'll see where this heads.